This chapter of my life is getting difficult. I feel like I’m in this never-ending race. It’s like I’m at the finish line and I just can’t cross. No matter how much I try and maneuver my way through. I’m just stuck watching everyone else cross. For the past couple of months, I have been taking action on this weight thing. But now it feels like I’m sitting on the sidelines again.
Something I beat before I can’t seem to beat now. No matter how much I try to talk my way out, I’m still not heard. It’s like talking to a brick wall. I just want to get this over with. 2 years just to get this treatment. Makes me feel like I wasted a lot of time.
The Rise, New Breed, The Storm and Words Of Fury. All of my creations I have put out. Now I’m looking at an ep that I’m not sure about anymore. I want to release it but I don’t want it to be too emotional or too much of the same content. I want to release it in a couple of days but it’s looking like I’m going to have to push it back. Maybe Christmas I guess. It has to pass my test. I have to be fully comfortable with it before I drop it. I can’t make the same mistakes again. Releasing pieces that don’t sound up to part. Or I stuttered a bit. I have to get as close to perfection as I possibly can get.