I’m self-publishing an ebook for the first time in 4 years. Why am I shaking as I write these words? Why am I so afraid to publish again? I have put out mixtapes and blogs before this. So why does this feel different? I guess cause I felt the most hate and anger come from this decision in the past. My dreams and aspirations were looked at as a disappointment in my loved one’s eyes. So why should I go through that again? If I live for others then who am I really? I’m looking at the publish button and I’m frozen. Sort of like how my sales were frozen the last time I did this. I still received hate when my books were never opened. Will it be the same situation again?