Today I have a new poem for you all. This is the poem I referred to in Weekly Thoughts 68: I lost it. Oscars came from a very depressing day. Still I hope you read and enjoy it. Or listen to it in my new Youtube video below the written poem.
I always said I wanted to act
You know so I can one day win an Oscar
That’s aiming high knowing I can’t act
Then I think to myself I been acting all this time
Do you know how many times I smile when I just want to cry?
How many times I crack a joke when I just want to tie a rope around my neck and just choke?
How many times I talk to my peers?
Just because being alone with the demons in my head is one of my biggest fears
I act every waking moment because what’s the point of talking it out with the people that made you feel this way
This very place I stay
Feels like the place where I’ll die one day
I act as good as Denzel sometimes
Then sometimes I just shut the door and cry my eyes out
I wish I didn’t have to take this route
Is some of the things I say to myself
Do you know how long I had these emotions?
For as long as I can remember
Each year I look to the 17th of November
Why? Cause that’s my birthday
I just hope that I can act good another day so I can see another birthday
That right there is my Oscar
22 Oscars so far
Will I get to see 23?