Weekly Thoughts #99: It’s my anniversary!
This is the second Weekly Thoughts of May 2021. I haven’t been having much to say, so I postponed this post. I rather have something to talk about than to have a short post about nothing. So any ways let’s talk about my struggles this week and last. Also let’s talk about my surgery anniversary.
I am currently looking to rerecord Love collision. I have this whole marketing vision for this project that is clinging to my ability to create this masterpiece. I tried maybe 10 times so far and have been struggling. Whether the beat is too fast or I’m beating the beat to the punch. Even though it’s spoken word, I still like to be on beat. I like to still feel like the beat and poem are identical or they compliment each other if that makes sense. I’m struggling, but I believe in myself and know this is just a minor setback.
Why is short form videos coming back? Seems like every platform is becoming the same. Its so weird. Remember when Vine was like 7 second videos. Then Instagram started having 15 second videos. Then vine died. Couple years later Tiktok and Triller was born but with a better control scheme for creating. Now it seems like every app is becoming the same thing. Now its Instagram Reels, Youtube Shorts, and Snapchat Spotlight. Like it’s getting tough to create for each one. I want to be available on each but don’t want to keep copying and pasting on each channel. What can I do to differentiate them all?
Just a recap of my Gastric Sleeve post-op 2nd year anniversary. My highest weight was 470 pounds. I felt like 500 was so close and I never wanted to even be in the 400s to begin with. But there I was, struggling with insecurities and depression. I didn’t like my clothes. I didn’t even like leaving the house. I stopped even getting haircuts because I felt like I didn’t want to be seen. At some point I stopped being me. Surgery brought me back to life. I have been riding this high since May 15th 2019. No matter what I face today, it’s nothing compared to the weight of depression I felt daily for years. It felt like it would never end. So yesterday I felt Joy, happiness, and relief.
Those were just a couple of memories in those pictures. After 2 years all I can say is thank god and thank me for trying to be better. Anyone that is thinking about having this surgery, just do it. Took me 3 years to finally complete all the steps needed to have it. It was worth the wait. I’m currently at 275 pounds. I can finally wear whatever clothes I want and I’m happy to do it. I’m the happiest I ever been about my appearance. Next year I can only hope that I’ll be even more in shape. My weight loss transformation is not over. It has just begun.
Highest Weight: 470 Pounds
Goal Weight: 420 Pounds
Surgery Day Weight: 400 Pounds
Lowest Weight: 270 Pounds
Current Weight: 275 Pounds