TBH (Spoken Word)

TBH (To Be Honest): Was also recorded for a mixtape called Words Of Fury. You can listen Here. Like, comment and subscribe to my mailing list.

To be honest

I want to come out and say I miss you girl

You was my world

The way you make my toes curl

You was worth every second of my life

At times I felt like you was my savior like Jesus Christ

I wanted to get on one knee and make you my wife

But somewhere down the line

Me and you didn’t have the same grind

We were two different brands

You was chasing the bands

And I was trying to expand

I’m someone you wouldn’t understand

I was young and always in wonderland

None of this was planned

To be honest you was my first love

So soft and plush

I was in a rush

Didn’t know if you was someone I can trust

Part of the problem is I was a virgin feining for sex like coke

I just really wanted to stroke

We was running off of hope

Argument after another had us fading like smoke

When I was without you I started to mope

Wanted you back but never spoke

Was looking so gorgeous that day you was wearing all white like the pope

I guess that was the second time I choked

I left you in the cold I was suppose to be your coat

I miss your soft skin

I know this the end

As we never see each other

I wasn’t like the others

The others was dirty

They fucked you over, deserve to get hit with a thirty

It was late when they realized they lost it all

I don’t feel like this a casting call

I just wanted to write about when I crashed into a wall

Or when I drop the ball

Or when I took a fall

Or when I lost it all

To be honest

This Is America (Poem)

America the land of the free

The home of the brave

Where cops shoot teens because they can

Nowadays the police are worst than the klan

Teenage girls become pregnant at 16

Half of America is stuck in poverty

Most people only have the energy to commit robberies

People gave up on working and started robbing

I guess this is the part you don’t see on tv

You only see the reality shows and athletes

You don’t see the people accepting defeat

The ones taking themselves out because of bills

You don’t see the addicts taking pills

You don’t see the drug dealers making deals

None of that is up for appeal

Its cool living the dream

Where everything is no longer segregated and everything is fair

A woman can beat the hell out of a man without him swinging

Women want rights to be equal but them beating men is fair

Countless videos of women jumping men while others watch

No one calls the police on the women, only call on men

A man defending himself is domestic violence

So I must silence

It’s so fair now between cops and gangsters

Cops can kill you and say it was a accident

On the other hand a gangster saying it was an accident gets him life

Now is that right

Day by day, night by night everyone pray for a better way

While days get worst

Teens are beat up and harassed by officers

While the president monitor

The people you vote for watch it all happen

Money is their only attraction

As long as they getting paid then they absent

I don’t even watch the news anymore

The news is so biased

You only see Hispanics and Black people doing illegal things

But never the Caucasian are ever on the scene

Black lives matter chants are seen everywhere

You only hear that when another race do the shooting

Black on black is just a normal shooting

Racial profiling is always the case

Walking while black will change the pace

Walking while white may get you a wave

Others live their lives being a slave

The only thing they worried about is the money

You get fed a bone every once in awhile

Just worried about not being on trial

This is everyday life

This is America

Disclaimer: This is me just releasing the my opinions on America. Like, comment and subscribe to my mailing list. View my previous posts until tomorrow. Audio version is below if you want to listen. Audio

Under (Spoken Word)

Under: I recited this on the day of my surgery. Thought I would share it on here. View previous posts until tomorrow. Like, comment and subscribe to my mailing list. The video of me reciting is here:

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About to go under

Listen I never been punctured by a knife

Only voices that spoke volumes inside

Never been physically stabbed but I got scars in my soul

That took a toll On me

It finally made me try and heal to feel whole

No matter what I tried I never healed correctly like my arm

Thoughts used to run wild so much I thought about being armed

A little voice told me to just be calm

See the thing about being verbally abused is it doesn’t really hurt until you hear the same stuff from your pops and mom

The same stuff that you can’t control is what enemies tend to use against you

My only advice is to always be confident in yourself

Without a insecurity they don’t have leverage

Now I’m not doing this cause I’m desperate

I’m doing this to get rid of my insecurity

And finally feel like the man again

I have been verbally beaten for 8 years

I have shed millions of tears

Just looking for a cure

I found one

If it wasn’t meant to be

He wouldn’t have let me get to this point

It’s almost time to go

So I’ll see y’all on the other side

My Mind (Poem)

My mind- Is me just releasing the thoughts in my mind from 2017. I posted this to just remember the old times and the old problems that I have surpassed. Like, comment and subscribe to my mailing list. View my previous posts until tomorrow. Audio version is below if you want to listen. Audio

I got a lot on my mind so I thought I write about it

Working all night just trying to make it

Doctors worried cause I’m not getting sleep

I can’t accept defeat

I got to prove that with me, you can’t compete

I got to stay ten toes down meaning I stay on my feet

I’m too busy taking leaps

No time to count sheep

As long as my heart got a beat

I’m going to be speaking on a beat

I can’t stop till my dreams is complete

Too far in, quitting is obsolete

It’s a New Year, I have to grind

I just got a lot on my mind

Out late just trying to shine

Still haven’t made a dime

As I continue to rhyme

I think is it my time

Is it my time to shine

I got to keep shooting my shot like steph

Long live Big Jeff

I got a lot of weight on my chest

I gotta push through it like a bench press

I can’t get any rest

I’m working each day with all I got left

Just worried about meeting death

This journey feel like a game of chess

The day is coming up

The only thing to make my frown turn upside down

I’m just waiting like Dwight waiting for a rebound

For years my mind been on lockdown

Made into a clown

Just to chase someone else dreams

Finally out like Gucci

I got crazy metaphors roaming through my mind like tunechi

If I wasn’t a little ashamed that I got to resort this I would spill

But for now it’s sealed

Tired of being looked at like I should be playing on a field

That’s just not my deal

Many spoken words where I express how I feel

In the gym going harder than a drill

Just trying to move this weight like a drug deal

With this I feel like I really got a voice

Feels good doing something with a choice

My way of making some noise

People couldn’t hear me for a long time

Spoken word came at the right time

Been shy for a long time

It was about time I had something that help me shine

Turned a new chapter in my life, if you don’t support me get in line

It’s my time like a clock

Hard as a rock

Nothing going to stop me not even a glock

Only person to stop me is myself

Book didn’t make a sale last year, you don’t know how I felt

Couldn’t sit back and wait for nothing

Grabbed my pen and went hunting

Now this Spoken Word in your head like a concussion

Did it all on my own no repercussions

It’s 2017 football talks gets no discussion

I’m tired of it, put red on your face like you blushing

My dreams in front of me and I’m rushing

Every track I do I’m crushing

Already got a team no time for people bluffing

Can’t wait for nothing then I’ll start rusting

Just know I’m coming

K. Exum

Loyalty (Poem)

We was so perfect together

I thought we was going to be together forever

You killed me silently like a suppressor

You was my treasure

I thought I gave you pleasure

You say all men are dogs

But you call yourself a bad bitch so who really is the dog

You called me a dog because you thought I was cheating

But you was the one sneaking

Leaving me in my feelings

Yeah I was out all them late evenings

But I was just trying to make my earnings

You know getting them Benjamin’s

But I’m always the one in questioning

But don’t think I didn’t hear those noises while on the phone

Yeah I heard you moan

When I asked you what was that sound

You said it was unknown

So I asked the girl from downstairs, you know Simone

She said you always have dudes over, man your cover was blown

While I was at work, you were getting boned

Damn what happened to our bond

We was like bonnie and Clyde

I wanted to make you my bride

Until you lied

When I walked in the door and seen you on top

I didn’t even want to talk I just wanted to pop

But I knew if I popped then I’ll be on lock

So I just left

But now all you say is niggas ain’t shit

But you was the one playing all the tricks

Now when your friends say what happen to old dude

You say he was so rude

And his dick was so small

But when I gave it to you, you was like I can’t take it all

This goes to show

That not every man cheats

Some just get a bad rep from their ex

You just got to peak into that nature and take different steps

Loyalty