Model Dreams #35
Writing Prompt #32
One thing I’ve always wished for is
Today, this moment right now. You’re probably reading and wondering what I’m talking about. But today is my operation day. I imagine I’m in a deep sleep with a smile on my face because I finally got what I wished for. The chance to lose weight and keep it off.
This journey has been long but I made it long. I told myself I couldn’t lose the weight before I ever stepped foot in the gym. I downplayed my own ability. I started this process at 434 pounds. Heck, I even made a poem about it back in 2016. Threatening to disable it.
I lost some weight and felt like the king of the world. Until I gained 20 pounds. Then after that, I found myself on a never-ending elevator. My weight went up for one appointment. Went down the next. I made this process hard.
Once I finally got it through my head I can do it. I dropped my weight to the lowest weight I had seen since high school. When I thought this day would never come it did. I got the one thing I really wanted this year. The gastric sleeve surgery.
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Model Dreams 32
Weekly Thoughts #27
This week wasn’t so rough. I think I was so cranky because I was hungry. Now not so much. I came close last week to cheating but I couldn’t bring myself to do that to myself. Without working out I have lost quite a bit of weight.
I lost 3 pounds this week. 13 altogether since starting the liquid diet. I think once my body got used to drinking instead of eating. It got easier. I’m literally 3 days away from my operation and it’s crazy.
The nerves are there but not really. I’m not scared of the operation. I’m scared of something going wrong doing the healing. There are side effects. Like I can cause some type of leak that can kill me. I got 3 more weeks of liquid and healing after it. So I’m a little scared for that.
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