Weekly Thoughts #24

Just the other day I was thinking about making this blog and writing about how I was waiting for my results for the sleep apnea test. The test that I had been waiting for a month for the results. It’s the only thing, for now, that was holding me back. Well, April 19th I got the results which stated that I had no evidence of sleep apnea like I had been thinking since they diagnosed me with it in October.

It feels like a burden has been lifted off my shoulder. I’m so close to being submitted to the committee. During the bariatric surgery process, you have to be submitted to a committee that decides when you can have the surgery and I’m just a few steps away from there.

It feels like I just released Poetic Gift and I’m already closing the door on another project. 20 tracks in but I don’t feel like it’s complete yet. After these last 2 then I’ll start chopping it down to a good 12 songs for this project.

As far as performing. I’m slowly making my way there. Going to busboys and poets and being in the atmosphere makes me want to get up there. But I’m still held back by the fear. I’m encouraged a lot about it but I’ll just go when I’m ready. I don’t want to rush and mess up.

I just wanted to vent for a second. So I thought I’ll bring this back. Sometimes it’s good to vent out loud and clear your mind and get a good assessment of what’s going on. Like always like, comment and subscribe to my mailing list to stay updated on my blog posts. Follow me on all social media platforms.

Let’s Talk About It: Domestic Violence

Nobody likes to get hit. Why should you hit someone and not be expected to get hit back? Why are men deemed as abusers for defending themselves? Why don’t women be held accountable for their actions? Why is it acceptable if she hit him?

I’m no abuser but I’m just confused as why am I a bad human if I defend myself. By no means is this blog about abusing anyone but I’m tired of seeing these same situations. If we were to count all the times a woman has slapped their boyfriend then who really are the abusers in the relationships.

Why aren’t women held accountable for bullying men with the constant hitting with the same excuse as to she’s only a woman. Even saying that out of this context would be looked at as sexist. So why use that now? She’s just a woman when she hit you to make it seem like she’s weak. But when the shoe is on the other foot I’m a poor excuse for a human being.

This blog is merely a response to when the male figure is attacked physically and he defends himself. Just making that clear. As for when it’s the man beating on the woman, I think he deserves the time he gets. If anyone is in that position, I think you should get out. That’s not love. You don’t physically and verbally abuse someone if you love them. That’s all I have to write on this subject. Like, comment and subscribe to my mailing list. View my previous posts until my next post. Check out some of my poems while you’re at it. See you next time.

Let’s Talk About It: Slave Reparations

Is it fair? Yes if every other race that went through those type of situations during those times are getting paid then yes the race that suffered over 200 years of slavery. And a number of years of segregation should definitely get paid.

My question is what is the money for? What are you going to do with it? Buy some new Jordan’s and continue to live in a broken system. Where all that money can be taken away because you matched the description of someone there looking for. Yes, a payday sounds great but the fight is not over. Or when we aren’t allowed the benefits that everyone else is awarded just because of how we dress or how our name is pronounced.

We take money over lives and that’s the problem. We lost trillions of people over those years because of how we looked. So now a check is supposed to make up for the killings, rapings, and hard labor with no pay. That’s just my thoughts on it. People feel differently and I would love to hear your thoughts below. Like, and follow this blog for more. Don’t forget to follow me on all social media platforms. Subscribe to my mailing list to stay up to date.