1. Drop a Song: My main priority for this month.
2. Get to 350:
3. Double Upload at least 10 days out the month.
4. Create a YouTube video.
5. Take more photos for Model Dreams.
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This week has been rough. I had to start my liquid diet on Wednesday. In my head, I wanted to have a last meal on the 30th but I couldn’t because I had an appointment on the 1st. So I played it safe. This liquid diet makes me want to quit altogether.
It’s so unrealistic. I have to go from eating 3 meals a day to not eating any food at all. I can only drink water and protein shakes. All though you can drink as many proteins shake you want it still doesn’t feel the same. Trust me I been inhaling them shakes and I still feel hungry. You can eat sugar-free jello and pop sickles. But they still don’t make you feel full.
For the last couple of days, I have been going to sleep hungry. Waking up hungry. For me, the shake only fills me for 2 hours top. You have to do this for 2 full weeks. I don’t know if I’m going to make it through. I honestly feel light headed. I can’t work out how I usually do because I have no energy to do so. If I could quit, I would.
On the upside, I lost another 10 pounds. So I’m currently at 405 pounds which is my new lowest weight. I have been doing this process for so long that I was obsessed over being at this point. Now I’m starting to doubt it. It’s not the liquid diet that’s changing my choice. It’s the fact that I can lose weight on my own. But I know I can relapse at any moment so that makes me want to stay.
This week has been okay. Usually, I’ll be happy about the 10 pounds but I’m kinda not feeling this surgery. The more I read on it and really think about it, makes me want to pull out. But who knows. That’s it for this post. Like, comment and subscribe to my mailing list to stay up to date on my latest blog posts. View my previous posts until tomorrow.
Weekly Thoughts 25:
This week was amazing. Simply amazing. Just to touch base on last week where I had passed the sleep apnea test. The test that was holding me back from my surgery. I didn’t think anything will get better after that. I know keeping faith is key but me and hope been split up.
So on to this week. I lost 15 pounds in 4 days. I still can’t believe I did that. I really just went back to my old gym routine and just pushed myself a little harder. I tracked my intake and made sure I didn’t eat when I wasn’t hungry. When Friday came I was back down to 416. The weight I had before I relapsed and went back to my old ways.
That’s not even the best part of this week. Today, I received the call. After 2 years I thought this day would never come. I am now locked in for surgery in a couple of weeks. I’m tearing up just writing this. For the first time in my life, I cried tears of joy.
I’m not going to make this emotional or nothing. I’m just going to end off this post with this, if you want something bad enough then you will sacrifice every being in your soul to make it happen.
15 Pounds gone in a week. It’s really unbelievable. I needed 10 pounds just to look in the surgeons face again. Now I’m back at my lowest feeling unstoppable.
Fitness Routine:
I decided to do a post about my fitness routine. So I’m going to start by saying I’m not an expert but this is what I have been doing and been getting some positive results. Also, I’m still in the process of losing weight so bare with me. I have learned that none of this matters unless your willing to cut out certain foods.
For starters, I stretch a little with some Lunges to the left and right and down the middle. I usually do it in the locker room. I don’t know why. I just do it like that. Before I work out I used to and sometimes do drink a pre work out drink. Such as Speed Stack Pumped
I found this to give me the best results as far as energy. I don’t really drink these anymore for surgery purposes. But I do recommend you try. The first and only thing I really do is CARDIO. Most times I do 60 minutes with a 5-minute cooldown on the elliptical. I just heard cardio is your best bet when trying to lose weight and that’s what I’m trying to do. Other than the elliptical I may split my workout up into 2. Meaning I’ll do 30 on the elliptical and 30 on the arc, just because those two machines are harder for me. Boosting the levels give me the best results.
As far as music goes I like to listen to NF or Ace Hood. Any type of music that’s an emotional or something with substance. I like to hear a word of advice when working out. Something that will make me want to move. That’s my preference, I know everyone’s different. Yeah, that’s really it for my routine. I don’t really lift because I’m not trying to build muscle on top of fat. It just doesn’t look well when I see others take that route. As always tell me what you think below. Like and Follow the Blog.