Writer At Heart (Spoken Word)

I am a writer at heart

It’s been hard

Hard to keep up my guard

I was stuck in the dark

Just trying to find my start

Trying to figure out how to make my mark

Some thought I didn’t have the smarts

But my poetry has been going for yards

They had it backwards

I’m a writer nothing less

I am bless

It’s been in my flesh

All along I knew it was in my chest

They couldn’t see it so they tried to commit theft

But I left them stressed

I been walking through the war with a bulletproof vest

Just to provide for my nest

When I realized they wasn’t there I had to find myself

I tried to turn back to please

Until I realized I was displeased

I had released my dreams

I stop believing

I had to come back because I felt like I wasn’t breathing

Like some one ripped my soul out

When I realized that someone was me

I started going hard once again

Now I’m gaining from it

I’m a writer at heart

I knew it when I picked up that pen when I was 8

I wrote my first story on that stormy night

It felt like the first time I took flight

Until I dropped the pen and seen the light

I knew it wasn’t right

I had to find me again

All the late nights up feeling pain

I knew it was something

Sitting in class feeling like something is missing

Running on that field knowing this isn’t me 

Seeing the smiles on my family face

Kept me going but my mind was in space

I had to trace back and change the pace

I found myself when I started writing speeches

It spark something I hadn’t felt in so long

My pride 

I was ready to ride

That led to the beginning of a new era

A new me 

The beginning of K. Exum

Book Talk: Crushing It!

So I have been reading this //ws-na.amazon-adsystem.com/widgets/q?ServiceVersion=20070822&OneJS=1&Operation=GetAdHtml&MarketPlace=US&source=ac&ref=qf_sp_asin_til&ad_type=product_link&tracking_id=kexum-20&marketplace=amazon&region=US&placement=0062674676&asins=0062674676&linkId=7a1b3122bad945a07a03ba86d96bd58d&show_border=false&link_opens_in_new_window=false&price_color=333333&title_color=0066c0&bg_color=ffffff” target=”_blank” rel=”noopener”>Crushing It! By Gary Vaynerchuk and it’s simply amazing. I believe I brought this about a month ago but I’ve been reading it slowly. But every time I read it I just feel so motivated afterward. I initially brought this to learn about how people just like me got to where they are now. Plus I just love everything Gary Vee says. Every Instagram post he makes I just have to listen to the jewels he drops. Even when I’m writing I have his videos on YouTube playing in the background. Right now I’m only on chapter 2 at the time I’m writing this blog. It’s this one line that sticks out to me out of the million quotes dropped in this book.

“You need to constantly be in do mode. I see you out there over thinking your content and agonizing over your decisions, taking forever to make up your mind. Your confidence is low, and your worried people will call you a loser if you make the wrong call. Get over that quick.”

 I absolutely love those lines, because I can feel that so deeply inside. I have been struggling with my content for that exact reason. If you been reading my Weekly Thoughts you will know this Ep has been taking a toll on me. The book so far has included stories from other successful people who use the Crushing It guidelines to get where they are now.

 This book is definitely out of my reading range. I usually read urban fiction a lot but this book is my way of stepping out of my comfort zone. I look forward to finishing this book soon and looking for other books like this to read or just any other books. I really want to read a poetry book to get a feel. If you know any leave some in the comments below and I’ll make sure to check them out.

Top 5 Favorite: Songs

I’m a hip-hop fanatic so expect hip hop songs. Maybe on a later date, I will have some other genres of music on my list but for now, these are my top favorite songs. My list changes from time to time so for now this is what I have.

 

Lost Ones by J. Cole

The flow he came with on this record was memorable. The story was perfect and it was so relatable as it could have been about anyone’s situation.  I have heard storytelling songs before but he took the extra mile when he took his voice to a higher pitch to match the woman’s tone. That inspires my poetry every day. It really showed me not to have any limits when creating. //ws-na.amazon-adsystem.com/widgets/q?ServiceVersion=20070822&OneJS=1&Operation=GetAdHtml&MarketPlace=US&source=ac&ref=qf_sp_asin_til&ad_type=product_link&tracking_id=kexum-20&marketplace=amazon&region=US&placement=B005OKV230&asins=B005OKV230&linkId=3b39104578e392053a3546bf4a1d56c2&show_border=false&link_opens_in_new_window=false&price_color=333333&title_color=0066C0&bg_color=FFFFFF“>Lost Ones

Stan By Eminem ft Dido 

Ths is one of my top favorites just because of the delivery. It was so interesting, the crazed fan that took out his own impregnated girlfriend was so poised. The switch between characters didn’t even feel real. The video put everything on display. Even without the video, you can just picture everything in your head by the way the song was put together. Just simply art at its best. //ws-na.amazon-adsystem.com/widgets/q?ServiceVersion=20070822&OneJS=1&Operation=GetAdHtml&MarketPlace=US&source=ac&ref=qf_sp_asin_til&ad_type=product_link&tracking_id=kexum-20&marketplace=amazon&region=US&placement=B000VWGZJ2&asins=B000VWGZJ2&linkId=96191f76689f0f5219f51f1f341ec6ee&show_border=false&link_opens_in_new_window=false&price_color=333333&title_color=0066c0&bg_color=ffffff“>Stan

 

I’m on one by Dj Khaled ft Drake, Rick Ross, and Lil Wayne 

I  love this song but I really don’t know why. It was just so chill and smooth when I listen to it. Its one of those songs you just love but can’t put the feeling it gives you into words.

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Hope by Ace Hood

One of the most underrated songs he ever created. The flow he had on this was simply amazing.  You should give it a listen. It’s a must-have on my gym playlist. //ws-na.amazon-adsystem.com/widgets/q?ServiceVersion=20070822&OneJS=1&Operation=GetAdHtml&MarketPlace=US&source=ac&ref=qf_sp_asin_til&ad_type=product_link&tracking_id=kexum-20&marketplace=amazon&region=US&placement=B00DRA0J5G&asins=B00DRA0J5G&linkId=a9a68e09de8b5930402182f100fa83db&show_border=false&link_opens_in_new_window=false&price_color=333333&title_color=0066c0&bg_color=ffffff“>Hope

Sorry by Joyner Lucas

I love a good story. The story of a friend killing themselves because of issues they felt like they couldn’t resolve. It really opened eyes to how others are affected by your suicide death and how it makes others feel especially someone like your friend. If you haven’t heard this song I recommend it to the highest point. //ws-na.amazon-adsystem.com/widgets/q?ServiceVersion=20070822&OneJS=1&Operation=GetAdHtml&MarketPlace=US&source=ac&ref=qf_sp_asin_til&ad_type=product_link&tracking_id=kexum-20&marketplace=amazon&region=US&placement=B01K17NYD6&asins=B01K17NYD6&linkId=786967532183b9ddefab7a6f001f852d&show_border=false&link_opens_in_new_window=false&price_color=333333&title_color=0066c0&bg_color=ffffff“>Sorry

Weekly Thoughts #3

This week has been amazing. I thought last week was great when I realized that I was at my lowest in the previous three years. But this week I thought I was falling off again. Some late night thinking made me step on the scale at 3 in the morning, and I saw my weight go down 3 pounds in the last five days. Not much but for me, I usually shed 3 pounds a month. So to see it in a week felt terrific. So excited after that I couldn’t even believe it. I kept getting on and off to make sure also went down to my birthday suit to make sure. I had to put in some hours in the gym afterward. Came home and fell asleep to wake up to see I lost another 3 pounds.

I’m 3 pounds away from the weight goal that I been chasing for the past two years, the emotions I have right now feels so good. In the gym, I’m a hard worker, but my eating has always been the problem. It’s not even like I eat a lot of snacks and sweets. I eat low-fat meals and stuff, but I use to eat a lot of it. Most times I wasn’t even hungry. I guess you can say I learned from my mistakes.

Other than the weight loss journey I have been focused on this blogging thing. Making sure I keep up with posting every day with good content. I have been coming up with a lot of different ideas. I don’t know what type of blog this is supposed to be. I would say writing based kind of blog, but I also like the whole lifestyle blogging way as well. I’m just going to really do me on this blog and not really care about the labels for now. I’m looking to put together a story for my blog. That’s the goal as of right now. It has been at least a year since I wrote one. I have just been writing a lot of poetry. But for now, I’ll keep posting poems. I have to thank all the readers that I have received so far. I hope I continue to grow as a writer and blogger. See you next week.