Writing Prompt #13

What did you learn about yourself this month?

That I do a lot of planning and not enough action. I often say or even think that I’m going to do something without actually doing it. I been planning to create videos for a couple of weeks but still haven’t done it. That sort of thing.

Also, I learned that I use the excuse of lack of confidence is the reason I didn’t do this or that. When really I’m just being lazy and not wanting to do something. It’s a disgusting trait for someone who wants to thrive and prevail.

How would I change this? No more talking just do it. Stop making excuses and start taking action. The ball is in my hands why not shoot it. We build confidence as we go. That’s it for this post like, and follow for more from yours truly. Read my previous posts until tomorrow.

3 Things That Bring Me Joy When I’m Down

Music: Really good music that makes you think that your life isn’t so bad. One of my key songs I like to listen when I’m down is a song called All Bad by Scarface. Put Affiliate Link) Yea that’s an affiliate link. Other than that I usually just listen to my workout playlist. Basically, listen to any music that has substance. Not a party song.

Sleep: A good nap just feels like a restart to the day. If I can get in a nap then I’ll be good after any midday trauma.

Video Games: Sometimes Just a good game while playing music is my remedy. I just like to tune everything out when I’m down in the dumps.

Problem With Social Media

Insecurities: the insecurities you get when you don’t get as much as likes and comments that you would like. On social media compliments or just being noticed is defined by a double tap of the finger. When one doesn’t get enough they feel down or depressed. Some week to change or do things outside of their character to get a change.

Catfish: Easy to get catfish. By someone using a fake page. For some putting your heart into a person who has a fake picture. Can be stressful because when the truth comes to the light. Your trust and heart really take a hit.

Bullying: social media is a bullying zone. It’s filled with individuals that are miserable and upset at their lives so they make fake pages just to bring you down. Just to feel their pain. Most times they do it to celebrities or just regular people who are just trying to enjoy their lives.

Behind The Scenes: 400+ Part 2

This weight has been a thorn in my side for so long. It’s getting annoying to even talk about it. But here goes nothing. 3 years of me working out and losing weight then gaining it back. Led me to finally drop the weight needed to meet the surgeon.

The surgeon talked about the side effects and what could happen and I didn’t feel right. You know? I love the idea of dropping weight faster than usual but something just didn’t feel right. After the meeting, I still had to deal with another doctor before I can reach the surgeon again.

That brings me to my current situation. Where I’m lost trying to get passed this never-ending task. You would think just going to sleep with a mask on would be easy. But for me, it’s the hardest thing I have faced.

I struggle with it almost every night. It’s like an air conditioner just blowing into my nose and mouth while I try to sleep. I only have to do it for a month and I can’t get through one night. The doctors act like I’m speaking a foreign language when I tell them I can’t sleep with it. Peers do the same thing.

I ask God for a sign all the time for if I should pull out or not. Maybe this is the sign or maybe it’s just another never-ending challenge. I still workout and try to eat right and lose some weight. But it’s nothing like if I went under already. That’s it for this post. Like, comment and share for more post like this. Enjoy some of my previous post below. See you tomorrow.