Weekly Thoughts #32: Continue reading “Weekly Thoughts #32”
- I have lost 37 pounds in the last two months. I was used to losing weight but not this much and to keep weight off is an extremely big deal for me.
- As far as clothes it’s amazing. Just the other day I put on jeans that I thought I would never be able to wear again. It’s been 4 plus years since I could put on a size 4x pants. I have been used to wearing 5s and 6x pants that it was kind of hard to believe.
- My overall feeling is different. I’m happier than ever before. Seeing those numbers drop every time I step on the scale is a breath of fresh air.
- Late night antics has been stripped from me. So one big effect is that you have to stop drinking afterward. I believe the carbonated drinks are a big no-no after the procedure. Although I’m not a big drinker. I’m still upset I don’t even get an option anymore. I’m only 21. Like I just became legal to do so. Now I can’t.
- The vomiting is a problem. Afterward, you have to worry about portion control. Too much over and you will vomit. As well as not much chewing will make you vomit. For me I know I’m used to finishing my food in .3 seconds. So getting used to eating each meal for at least 30 minutes has definitely been a con. Right now I can eat maybe half of the food if it was prepared on a small plate.
- Sometimes I don’t feel as accomplished like before. Literally, I can do nothing and lose 5 pounds. But before I went hard in the gym and lost weight and felt like I actually did something. Now it just feels like the doctors work.
- All the liquids can be a real hassle. As of now, I have to take in 80 ounces a day. The normal is 64 but for my size, I need at least 80 ounces a day. With the procedure, you have to sip smaller. So just attempting to sip 80 ounces is annoying. It feels impossible at times.
I’m happy I had surgery. I often mentioned in other blogs how I hated my weight and this felt like my way out. Stepping on the scale and no longer seeing 400 is a big accomplishment. If you’re new then you wouldn’t know that my highest was 470 pounds. I lost 70 pounds before surgery. It took me a year to do so. Since surgery, I have lost 37 pounds in 3 months.
Although eating and drinking is still something I have to get used to. It’s a process to this. I know over time the drinking and eating will eventually be no big deal. Once that’s under control I know the vomiting will stop.
Weekly Thoughts #31
It’s been a couple of weeks since I did a post like this and not much has changed. As far as my post-op journey it has definitely evolved. I no longer feel any pain in my body. I can eat more foods than just seafood.
On to other things. Model Dreams I really want to post more pictures but I can’t fit anything in my closet. My skinny jogger jeans are now baggy on me. I have never felt so happy to not be able to fit any of my clothes. I would go out and purchase clothes but at the rate, I’m going it’s really no point. I buy some clothes and can’t fit it next month is really no point. Plus I’m not balling like that.
So close to finishing this little project as well as trying to blog more. I’m almost done with this writing challenge and I’m thinking of doing another or just doing writing prompts every day. I need a mandatory post plus another. Still thinking about it.
My blogs Birthday is on the 15th of this month and I’m excited. Excited that I lasted this long. I honestly didn’t miss that many days if any on my journey to blogging every day. If I did I think I made up for it. Blogging is still something new to me so I’m still learning as I go along.
That’s it for this post. View my previous posts until tomorrow. Check out some of my poems and make sure you follow me on IG @k.exum. Subscribe to my mailing list for more updates.
One thing I’ve always wished for is
Today, this moment right now. You’re probably reading and wondering what I’m talking about. But today is my operation day. I imagine I’m in a deep sleep with a smile on my face because I finally got what I wished for. The chance to lose weight and keep it off.
This journey has been long but I made it long. I told myself I couldn’t lose the weight before I ever stepped foot in the gym. I downplayed my own ability. I started this process at 434 pounds. Heck, I even made a poem about it back in 2016. Threatening to disable it.
I lost some weight and felt like the king of the world. Until I gained 20 pounds. Then after that, I found myself on a never-ending elevator. My weight went up for one appointment. Went down the next. I made this process hard.
Once I finally got it through my head I can do it. I dropped my weight to the lowest weight I had seen since high school. When I thought this day would never come it did. I got the one thing I really wanted this year. The gastric sleeve surgery.
Thank you for reading. Like, comment and subscribe to my mailing list for more updates. View my previous posts until tomorrow.