Writing Prompt #32

One thing I’ve always wished for is

Today, this moment right now. You’re probably reading and wondering what I’m talking about. But today is my operation day. I imagine I’m in a deep sleep with a smile on my face because I finally got what I wished for. The chance to lose weight and keep it off.

This journey has been long but I made it long. I told myself I couldn’t lose the weight before I ever stepped foot in the gym. I downplayed my own ability. I started this process at 434 pounds. Heck, I even made a poem about it back in 2016. Threatening to disable it.

I lost some weight and felt like the king of the world. Until I gained 20 pounds. Then after that, I found myself on a never-ending elevator. My weight went up for one appointment. Went down the next. I made this process hard.

Once I finally got it through my head I can do it. I dropped my weight to the lowest weight I had seen since high school. When I thought this day would never come it did. I got the one thing I really wanted this year. The gastric sleeve surgery.

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Behind The Scenes: 400+ Part 2

This weight has been a thorn in my side for so long. It’s getting annoying to even talk about it. But here goes nothing. 3 years of me working out and losing weight then gaining it back. Led me to finally drop the weight needed to meet the surgeon.

The surgeon talked about the side effects and what could happen and I didn’t feel right. You know? I love the idea of dropping weight faster than usual but something just didn’t feel right. After the meeting, I still had to deal with another doctor before I can reach the surgeon again.

That brings me to my current situation. Where I’m lost trying to get passed this never-ending task. You would think just going to sleep with a mask on would be easy. But for me, it’s the hardest thing I have faced.

I struggle with it almost every night. It’s like an air conditioner just blowing into my nose and mouth while I try to sleep. I only have to do it for a month and I can’t get through one night. The doctors act like I’m speaking a foreign language when I tell them I can’t sleep with it. Peers do the same thing.

I ask God for a sign all the time for if I should pull out or not. Maybe this is the sign or maybe it’s just another never-ending challenge. I still workout and try to eat right and lose some weight. But it’s nothing like if I went under already. That’s it for this post. Like, comment and share for more post like this. Enjoy some of my previous post below. See you tomorrow.

Keto Diet

This ought to be short just like my time on this diet. I believe I started the diet on a Tuesday and stopped on Friday. My initial goal was to last the entire month but it didn’t work out. I gave in to the temptation of good starchy food.

If I can offer one tip it would be don’t try it. But really it’s about being consistent. For me I love starch. Eating meat and vegetables is hard. It’s a lot of things that you would eat regularly that you can’t eat.

Like oatmeal, cereal, fruit, and milk. But you can eat all the meat you want. So weird.

That’s one diet that I wouldn’t try again. I got good results but I still feel like I was starving. Snacking was a major factor. Peanuts became my best friend. Eating meat with cheese turned out to be disgusting without the bread. I may try another diet but as of now, the Keto Diet is not it. I’ll leave a picture I found helpful while on the diet below.