Writing Prompt #13

What did you learn about yourself this month?

That I do a lot of planning and not enough action. I often say or even think that I’m going to do something without actually doing it. I been planning to create videos for a couple of weeks but still haven’t done it. That sort of thing.

Also, I learned that I use the excuse of lack of confidence is the reason I didn’t do this or that. When really I’m just being lazy and not wanting to do something. It’s a disgusting trait for someone who wants to thrive and prevail.

How would I change this? No more talking just do it. Stop making excuses and start taking action. The ball is in my hands why not shoot it. We build confidence as we go. That’s it for this post like, and follow for more from yours truly. Read my previous posts until tomorrow.

Writing Prompt #12

What do I need to let go?

The past:

The past is not a reflection of me and that’s something I just need to accept. Although situations and my loved ones hurt me in ways I can’t explain. It’s not something that should make me hate them and myself.

As far as the future goes, I don’t think I can go full thrive to my goals if my mind is stuck in the past. To chase after a dream or your goals, your mindset has to be focused on that goal or dream. Not thinking about what happened last year, last week or even yesterday. Just talking from experience.

Writing Prompt #11

What fear is holding you back?

Most definitely fear of failure. I look at this video of me trying to perform a piece sometimes and it’s traumatizing. I really want to perform because that’s what poets really do besides writing a book. So I really want to be known as a poet so I need to do this.

But the only thing holding me back is myself and this mindset. Like repeating this video is scary for me. I’m one of the shyest people you’ll ever meet. So trying to really expose myself and my talents on stage is a tough pill to swallow. I’m dying to get my feet wet. I know once I do then it’ll be easier when I do it again and again. The fear of drowning is what holds me back.

Writing Prompt #10

Write about a difficult conversation you’ve had recently. Then rewrite what you couldn’t say at the time of the conversation.

The most difficult conversation I had recently was maybe five months ago. When I was in a major drought. I was doubting myself and my appearance. I had a serious conversation with my loved ones about the life choices they made for me and how it affected me. A lot of apologies was said on their part. A lot of tears flowed.

But if I was in that moment again I think I would have gone a lot harder. Also, I would have like to include all the people that hurt me the most. Instead of trying to blame it on one person and make them feel worse than what the situation truly is.

Me being me I held back a lot because I’m not the type to express feelings. It’s crazy to keep holding everything in but that has been my life so far. The mic is my only therapist. What I couldn’t say at the time was sorry for putting the blame all on you. I should have gone with my instincts in the situation and handled things my way. Even though you would have been embarrassed with me you might have understood later.

Writing Prompt #9

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What are the three things that scare you the most and why?

Not fully accomplishing my goals. Just knowing that I never tried.

Not losing the weight I feel that will make me happy. Just knowing that I let myself down by not getting off the weight that I set out to do time after time again. Then not truly being happy with myself and wardrobe. Knowing in the back of my head that this was all my fault.

Not fully becoming the artist I want to be. Failure seems to be the theme of this post. Me knowing that I tried my best and didn’t live up to my fullest potential is scary. You know when your passionate about something but failed to become everything you can be. Thinking to yourself what could I have done to get to this or that accomplishment. Regrets basically. I don’t want to have regrets at the end of my life.